4 years 2 months on testosterone
Love isn’t about race, or gender, or even sexuality. The woman I marry won’t be my wife because of the color of her skin or the gender of those she’s loved before me. Love isn’t about preconceived ideas, love is about individuality and expressing an inner desire to be a part of someone. Love is, that simple.
Two weeks ago my mother looked me dead in the eye in the middle of an argument and broke my spirit, she yelled, voice full of anger “Megan…” And the rest of her words disappeared. She looked almost as broken as I was. She didn’t mean it and she felt terrible and after some tears were shed and some words were said, we moved on.
Then today something really broke me. But I didn’t cry, I didn’t yell, and I didn’t move on. You see my dad, who has always been more of a sperm donor than an actual father, told me that I’ve proven that I am “not a man”. Apparently I do not handle things the way he would like or the way he defines as a mans way. This didn’t destroy me or ruin my life, I took a deep breath and I walked away.
You see when someone loves you and hurts you, we cry because we can’t imagine ever being hurt by them.
When someone who doesn’t love you, hurts you we move on, because they never really mattered in the first place.
Tomorrow is December 10, 2013, a day I never thought I would live to see, let alone celebrate with a supportive family. You see, for those that don’t know, tomorrow is the 4 year anniversary of my first testosterone injection ever. That means just 4 years ago today I took the first step of a life long process to become happy and myself…I was a junior in high school and I am currently a junior in college, I don’t know what you think, but I think that’s something to celebrate!
There something about wearing boxers and nothing else. Make me feel complete, makes me feel like a man. Being shirtless, seeing my bare chest, it’s one of my biggest accomplishments and it feels just as incredible every time I take my shit off!
Let’s talk about sex… how does your transition effect your sex life?